#19

I put on my reddest lipstick today. Anyone who saw me would have thought I were celebrating a special occasion or that I'd be meeting someone. Truth is, I only took my mom and my youngest brother to work - for their flu shots.

I miss dressing up and I miss putting extra effort to make myself beautiful. When I lived in the city, I could never go out without looking fine. There were always people to meet and too many beautiful strangers to pass by: looking dull and unattractive was never an option.

Things changed when I decided to settle here in the 'burbs. It's not that there aren't people to meet, it's just that those people seem to think that prettyfying yourself is overrated. I get stares instead of hey-you-are-pretty looks and that-is-annoying.

I put on my reddest lipstick today; and I put my hair in a bun. I didn't care what people thought of me. I wanted to be beautiful; my mother said I was.

(for 6/19/2010)